How I Live Now

I am feeling rather lost lately, not in the sense of not knowing where I am, but rather in not knowing where I am going. I feel disconnected and isolated so much of the time, and find myself withdrawing farther from others all the time. It isn't what I ever planned for myself, not where I saw my life going, but it is what it is.  I know things can get better, I know they might, but not without effort.  When I am in Second Life I can pretend to be someone else, I can dress up like I have somewhere to go, but most of the time even I know it is an act. My true self is hidden behind costumes and cutesy looks that I would never pull off anywhere else. This look is different, it somehow echoes deeper in my heart and soul. It resonates with who I have been and who I am still. This is how I live now.

Credits: 
Hair - little bones. Poser w/ Hat (Browns) **New@The KUSTOM 9**
Hair Base - *League* Erin Hairbase Tattoo Brunette -Pale
Skin - Swallow Alice Porcelaine (6.Spring) Black
Freckles - .Pekka. Light freckles + heart upper cheek **New@Cosmetics Fair Beach Party**
Facelight - *League* Windlight Facelight Softer
Eyes -  [Buzz] Arcane Eyes - Poison **New@The Season's Story**
Hands - Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands - Elegant1 R & Flat L
[Note: Above Textured With Slink Advanced HUD from Swallow]
Lashes - [ glow ] studio, Innocent. eyelashes - gentle,  *League* Avatar Eyelash Hider
Nails - {Wicked} Peach - Nails - Neon Fades **New@Cosmetics Fair Beach Party**
Body Tattoo - Letis Tattoo :: Saiph :: 100% :: MM13013

Shoes - * .:: deeR ::. * MESH sharon boots [Multi-Texture]
Top - {SMS} Sleeveless Crop Top Cassettes S **New@The Dressing Room FUSION**

Skirt - -Pixicat- TheDark.Skirt

Bag - VCO - Art eco Bag _ pizza [Gacha Prize] **New@The Season's Story**
Camera - :::LP::: Le Primitif Fooli Film_Camera - Black (21) RARE [Gacha Prize] **New@The Season's Story**
Bracelets - :Fusion: Bangles Mix & Match **New@Project Limited**
Earring - [Fetch] Sigrun Earring - Left (Pale Wood)

Poses - 
{Imeka}, Charmy - Pose 5, Pose 7, Amelie - Pose 3,  Pose 4, Pose 7
Tillie's Posing Studio V 5.0 - Standalone HUD
Avatar Eye Control/Expressions - 
AnyPose Expression HUD [Free On Marketplace or Inworld @Phate Sheppard Creations]
Location -
Laviere & Tee*fy, MishMish,The Secret Store, Kirin, Pizza's, Inspiration Point (141, 185, 27) - General

Ducks In A Row

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Sometimes, 'Getting Ones' Ducks In A Row' is like chasing Ice Cubes in a Hot Frying Pan. A little ridiculous, a lot useless, no matter how hard you try, they keep shifting out of place. This is sort of my theme this week, I need to let the ducks do their thing, and hope they get organized on their own.



Having had a painful and weepy day at the hospital, I was just happy to finally get home and find a minute to pull this long in the making post together. Ever since I got these sweet GACHA Birdy/Alchemy Spring Babies at The Chapter Four, this post has been germinating. 



Needing to build a space where I could unleash my little Ducky family meant a special build on my parcel. I wanted it to be kitschy and homey, lots of spring flowers and lots of pops of color and whimsy.  I had so much fun, I may leave it on the lot far below my sky box - just for kicks. 



I wanted to pull out lots of the goodies I have gotten from The Arcade, which closes down today, so I hope you all have been GACHA'd out for the time being. I admit, I went back at least three times, just wanted to try for some of the things I skipped the first time, and some things I wanted to have more of inventory, like these wickedly awesome -tb- Vintage Campers.



Lots of colorful clothing from a -new to me- shop, Luas Urban Style, and accessories made this look as geeky chic as I had hoped. Shoes from deeR are my new favorite kicks, with a zillion ways to customize them by color, textures, metals, prints, in all parts. While, I never managed to wrangle my ducks, so I tucked them safely back into my inventory. Now I am off to bed to read so I can let my real ducks hop into a row!

Credits:
Shoes - * .:: deeR ::. *, MESH higher HW shoes [Multi-Texture Change HUD]
Sweater - !gO! Dey, hoodie vest [Marketplace]
Shorts -  Luas Urban Style, Meg Shorts S Green
Tights - Luas Urban Style, Funny Tights Stars Socks
Headband - Luas Urban Style, pom pom headband yellow
Glasses - [Deadwool],  San Diego Glasses - pois red (NEW@The Arcade)

Necklace - *Epic* Kawaii Sweet Goo Necklace! {Plum} (NEW@Luck Of The Irish)
Bangle - JD - Piramide Bracelet Right (NEW@The Dressing Room)

Facial Piercings - .:ellabella:., Mariejean [Scripted]

Hair - Magika, [Hair] Such 

Skin - *League*,  Skin Erin Pale Aurorat Brunette Chest D (NEW @Skin Fair 2014)

Skin Add On - *League*, Erin Brows Black - Pale & Erin Tintable Lipstick - 3 (Included In Fat-Pack)
Eyes - IKON, Ascension Eyes - Hazel
Hands - Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands - Elegant1 R & Flat L
Feet - Slink, Avatar Enhancement Feet - Mid Height
[Note: Above Textured With Slink Advanced HUD from *League*]
Nails - [V/I],  Slink Hands Fingernails Applier - ROCK #1 (NEW@Rock Attitude Fashion Fair)
Lashes - MMS, Thora Lashes [No Longer Available]
Facial Tattoo - Letis Tattoo, :: Stars (L) :: 100% :: FC12001

Poses - 
Diesel Works
Glitterati Poses [Marketplace]
Props/Decor -
Birdy/Alchemy - Spring Babes - Ducky - Lemon, Winter, Butter, Chocolate, Midnight (NEW@The Chapter 4) 
[PM] Pixel Mode - THG - Small Clay Pots (NEW@The Arcade)
[PM] Pixel Mode  - THG - Watering Can (NEW@The Arcade)
Lark - Sunflowers (NEW@The Arcade)
Lark - Handkerchief Bunting (NEW@The Arcade)
-tb- Spring Living - Radio (Green)(NEW@The Arcade)
-tb- Vintage Camper - Pink (NEW@The Arcade)
-tb- Vintage Camper - Blue (NEW@The Arcade)
-tb- Spring Living - Chair (Yellow) (NEW@The Arcade)
-tb- Spring Living - Clothesline (NEW@The Arcade)
-tb- Spring Living - Clothesline (NEW@The Arcade)
Zigana . birdhouse . wicked (NEW@The Arcade)
::Fabuleux:: My lil Garden
LISP Mesh Bluebell Garden Arch
LISP Mesh - Bluebell Fence Middle Broken 1
LISP Mesh - Bluebell Fence with Posts - Yellow
LISP Mesh - Bluebell Fence with Posts
.lame - Tiara Laundry Basket - White
HPMD* Sweet Garden Grass06 - white*b & a (Mesh)
HPMD* Sweet Garden Grass06 - mix(warm colors)*a & b (Mesh)
leaf .firefly grasses
2pTree Cherry Blossom by Sql Miles

Combat Baby

Hair - /Wasabi Pills/, Marin Mesh Hair - Orchid
Skin - *League*,  Skin Erin Pale  Brunette Chest D (NEW @Skin Fair 2014)
Skin Add On - *League*, Erin Brows Black - Pale & Erin Tintable Lipstick - 5
Eyes - IKON, Ascension Eyes - Hazel
Hands - Slink, Avatar Enhancement Hands - Elegant1 R & Flat L
[Note: Above Textured With Slink Advanced HUD from *League*]
Nails - Hello Dave, Slink Avatar Enhancement -  Gacha Prize: In The Blue
Lashes - MMS, Thora Lashes [No Longer Available]
Face & Body Tattoo - Letis Tattoo, :: Rigel Combination :: 75% :: FULL13004 + Slink Hand Applier HUD

Boots - * .:: deeR ::. *, MESH Higher Combat Boots [Multi-Texture] (NEW@Luck of The Irish Gacha)

Outfit - GiRL Thursday, Camo Corset & Skirt - Blue (NEW@My Attic at The Deck)
Socks - Pig, NU Sock Mit Suspenders Knee - Black Sheer

Collar - [geek.], Capped Collar  - Non scripted - Pink (NEW@Suicide Dollz Event)

Cuffs - POMPOSITY, Bullet Bracelet (SG Version) (NEW@Suicide Dollz Event)

Poses - 
[LAP], Kewt As A Button & Emo Brat Sets [No Longer Available]
Purple Poses, Lisanna Set
Location - 
Dead End City - Dark RP Sim