Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Everybody Hurts.

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I am having a rough couple of, well, lets just say a rough time of it and sometimes it just seems that there is no light at the end of that tunnel. We have all been there to some degree, whether it is a fleeting moment of sadness, or full scale clinical depression, everybody hurts sometime. Some people seem to have a natural resilience to it, while others seem to utterly falter. Then there are those of us who have been fighting for so long, that the battle wears us down like shelter in a storm. We are strong at first, but eventually, the rain and winds wear us down, so there is just less and less of us there to keep it all together. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try to keep it together, you just find yourself exposed and raw, fragile and overly sensitive to the world in general. This is where I find myself living lately, in that battered and broken place that has me hurting beyond hurt, and not sure if I can recover.

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I didn't think I would be blogging again, certainly not in this mood, but I wanted to change my look in-world to show how I feel; the fragile and the broken, the worn and the weary. I started with a pair of distressed jeans from **[Riddle]**, and decided to see what my dear friend Neferia Abel of -L'Abel-had sent me of her new releases. This lovely Malin shirt, with it's fragile chiffon cuffs just worked for me. It is lovely, and I love to see Nef doing separates. I chose a pair of well worn and reworked boots from *REDGRAVE*, the absolutely brilliant Girls' Bikers have been overhauled to be even more perfect, as if that were possible. I adore that each boot is different, the worn twisted and well loved leather like a shield. The fragile and perfect KessKreations Karen Earrings are so lovely here, the customization script allowed me to match them to my look, and the fine prim work, which is not normally my 'cup of tea' is too precious and precise to be ignored. The ring is Paper Couture's Diamond and Rose Bouquet Ring. The final addition, was the handbag. I didn't have one I wanted to use, but I knew I hadn't been to Bare Rose Tokyo for ages, and know they have the most brilliant and inexpensive bags, so I popped on over and was in love on first sight with the Daisuki Bag, here in Brown. For a mere $140 LaLas, I was set, with a great bag, fabulous flexi and sculpted details, and 3 hold options.

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I knew I wanted to return to this absolutely stunning T U L I Kalista crying skin, since I have been crying endlessly for days. It is flawless, and the non-crying versions are next in line once I save up my pennies, as they are lovely and have so many make-up options. I wanted a hair style that felt like it was sheltering me from the elements, that I could hide behind, but was still chic and precious. *Pazazz Hair* offers this stunning Riha wig in a brilliant choice of shades, this is from a solids pack. Lashes are from LeLeutka, and eyes are my precious treasured Miriel gems, that are unfortunately no longer available for sale.

Shopping Details:
Top - -L'Abel-, Malin Shirt, Antik
Jeans - **[Riddle]**, Classic Dirty, Plain
Earrings - KessKreations, Karen Earrings (Scripted to Zirconium, White Pearl, Champagne Gems)
Ring - Paper Couture, Diamond and Rose Bouquet Ring (Worn on R Hand)
Boots - [*RG*] *REDGRAVE*, Girls' Bikers RELOADED Smoke+Bronze
Bag - :::B@R:::, Daisuki (Brown, L Hand)
Hair - *Pazazz Hair*, Riha - Coal
Skin - T U L I, Kalista Fair 21
Eyes - Miriel, Standard Eyes - Sunlit Tree [No Longer Available]
Lashes - LeLutka (was MMS), Thora Lashes

Note: All Pictures Are Direct Screen Captures With No Post Editing, No Shading or Blending. They Are Taking On A Flat Prim Background With The Sun As The Only Light Source. Poses Are By The Amazing Pose Makers of SL, I Have Over 1200 So I Credit Them All Here. ~ Ketsy


Kesseret Steeplechase said...

It is good to see you blogging again and many hugs to you!

Anonymous said...

I'm so impressed with your ability to write about how you are feeling and find a constructive, creative way to tell the world. Fight for yourself. There is a good life on the other side of depression. —Portia

Cajsa Lilliehook said...

I know you have had a long, hard struggle. Constant pain is exhausting and breaks the spirit. I hope you can find some mercy and don't beat yourself up for feeling low. It's natural at times and we cannot always keep a stiff upper lip and buck up and all those other trite suggestions. You could use some Mercy Now, so I sent you this song link

Jhuzen Ketsugo said...

@ Kess
TY, you inspire me more than you know. *hugs*

@ Portia
Better out than in I suppose, I am just glad that there are kind hearts that reach back, like yours. Thank-you.

@ Cajsa
Physical and emotional pain and then some lately. Thanks for you wise words as always, I know you have been down this road too, and I truly appreciate your kindness and humanity. You are a gem.

~ Ketsy

IndiaRose said...

It's wonderful to see you post again :-) I agree with all the other replies here, they have said beautifully things that I thought myself when reading your post.

I was really struck by how each item shows your feelings of the moment, and also an underlying strength or a beauty that shines through even though there was a battle to get there. Pieces that are battered and worn, and even fragile... but special for being unique, and showing how something that is worn and distressed can take on a new beauty after living through so many storms.

Jhuzen Ketsugo said...

@ IndiaRose
I looked back to find a load of spelling errors, but you so understand my point of view and you always do, and I thank you for being so kind and perceptive as always. You make blogging worth it for me for so many reasons. *hugs*
~ Ketsy

skat said...

You say it so well; I'm in a similar mindset lately but slowly pulling up and out! Had to comment on your "Miriel gems" - I treasure my Miriel eyes as well; she is sorely missed! I use Open Ocean; I've yet to find another set of eyes that appeal to me as much as Miriel's.